So, my last post was not pleasant at all...I was an emotional wreck, obviously, and unfortunately I made some bad decisions in that state (none of which included killing anyone, har har). The numb feeling went away by the end of the night and I was left just really upset, which is better than numb sometimes. It has just been a really crazy few weeks, between dealing with my health and worrying about several friends and family member's health, especially my mom - I'm not sure I've mentioned it here, but she suffers from Lupus and it has lately started to affect her heart. She works her self so hard and I am very afriad of her dying. However, I don't want to talk about all that. My posts on here tend to be very depressing because this is where I vent, but I feel like lightening things up a bit tonight.
I don't know how to explain how I am. You could say ditzy, but maybe it's just the brainfog, I don't know. Either way, I manage to do a lot of dumb things. Today I managed to break the zipper on a zip-loc bag. Only I could do that... Othr than that, nothing very exciting has happened to me, since I spend most of my time at home. I ran out of my centrum vitamins and went foraging down in the basement to look for some more, and ended up finding some vitamins for ages 50 and up...I figure since my body works like about an 80 year old's, they'll be a good match, right? Ha. I also found some hair, nail, and skin vitamins, which I may try taking. They have Kourtney Kardashian's signature on the back, so they must be legit. :p Seriously though, I really hate messing around with new pills. I'm on so many things that I feel like even adding a vitamin might cause some sort of bad reaction somehow. Sigh... I want to grow my hair out, though. I want to donate it, not to locks of love because I've heard they're kind of sketchy, but to some organization like that. I know I complain all the time about various details of being sick and such on here, but it has also helped me see how fortunate I am in other areas of my life (even if it doesn't always sound like I feel that way). I'm very lucky I have a head of hair and eyebrows and eyelashes...I'm lucky I don't have an autoimmune condition like alopecia, and I'm lucky I don't have to continuously take a medication that makes me sick without any hope of being able to get off it, like with chemo. Dealing with medicines is SO scary and frustrating, but I'm so fortunate that if a medication is not working for me, I can go to the doctor and find a solution, you know? Not everyone has that luxury. Not everyone even has the luxury of getting any medicine or medical treatment at all! It's funny how some of the things that have caused the most heartache in my life, like medications and doctors, are actually some of the things I should be most thankful for. Funny how life is, huh?
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