Music

So, things have not been so nice. But I have been loving a few songs as of late so I'm going to do a little post about why they mean a lot to me. Inspired by the lovely teenpotsies on youtube, I guess. Oh. and before I begin that...midodrine, which has been a miracle drug for me, is going off the market on September 30. I'm pretty much devastated, because I will barely be able to walk, stand, or sit up without it. I'm terrified about that. Search midodrine on facebook to join one of the groups who are against this drug being discontinued and learn about what you can do to help, by the way. But moving on. You will see a basic theme in the 3 songs I'm mentioning.

Aiming for the Sun by Ryan Keen http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGDgthQT4pw

This song says, "I feel lost so I'm looking out, searching for a guiding light. I keep aiming for the sun so that my shadows fall behind. Am I just wasting my time?"
I relate to this line because I feel like I keep trying and trying to stay positive right now with my sickness, to keep going. But bad things just keep coming, and I wonder if fighting it and trying to keep going is just a big waste of my time.

Comes and Goes by Greg Laswell http://youtube.com/watch?v=pEFxfVyz4Uc

This song is beautiful, first of all, and also has a lot of things I relate to.
"This one's for the lonely the ones that seek and find. Only to be let down, time after time. This one's for the torn down, the experts at the fall. Come on friends, get up now, you're not alone at all."
Being sick makes you extremely lonely, cause so many let downs in life, really does tear you down. That's all self explanatory. It is nice, though, that this song notes "you're not alone at all" because I really do need to hear that as a reminder - I'm not the only sick person out there! There is such an awesome support group of sick folks out there who are INCREDIBLE individuals.
"It comes and goes in waves. I'm only left to wonder why I try."
This song was wrote about family going through death and illness, and the pain from it all really does come and go in waves - I definitely experience that. There are times when I'm just fine, times when I'm slightly depressed, and times when the pain and uncertainty of my experiences just HIT me out of nowhere and I can barely function. And, lately, I am wondering why I try to keep going, and fight this.

Ain't no Reason by Brett Dennen http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=amwVyRH2B8A

I recommend just watching this video because the whole thing is just stunning, I don't even know if I can pull specific lines from this song. It states; "you can spend your whole life working for something just to have it taken away." A very poignant statement - life as we know it can be gone like THAT. It happened to me, I know. My whole life was taken away in an instant...so I love that this song brings up that point. This whole song just talks about how screwed up the world is and that has REALLY been bothering me lately. The line "slavery's stitched into the fabric of my clothes" is another beautiful and true statement. The problems of the world are so great, it just feels hopeless to me lately. But I love the line, "love will come set me free, I do believe..." I agree with this, only I'd put in God's love. It's tough to remember it, but I really do believe God will set us all free from the pain of this world.